to earn a penny..

Finally i've learn..how hard it is to earn a penny...
mase kecik2 dulu abah always told me this ayat..
"kamu kene blaja rajin2,nanti besar x de la idup susah cam abah.."
tapi time tu..
those words meant nothing to me..
ye la..
budak kecik..
tau pe..men tikam,galah panjang,rebut tiang dll. tau la..
ye x?
neway..back to the main story..
those days i didn't even think n didn't even imagine how hard it is to living this life..
ye la..everything we ask n wish for..our parents will try their best to fulfill..
but now..
all of a sudden, i've to find my own penny...
yes, i can still ask from them but then 'segan la beb..dah besar..nak mintk duit mak bpk lg ke?'

hari raya last year was the first time i had a long chat with my mak,abah n e.d(abg).
they told me lots of stories i didn't know..stories long before i was born...
how mak n abah met..
n how hard it is for them to find food for us..
maklum la..
abah haven't got the chance to get appropriate education like we can now..
n abah end up as a buruh..
he work for himself..
he get his payment from building the villagers house n repairing them..
so..ade kerja ade la duit..
that's why we have to be very jimat..
their life were much harder before i was born..

he told me..
one day,
pak cik jual ice cream lalu in front of our home n shouted "ais kerim...ais kerim!!"
that time my father had no money..
but my brother (e.d) who was about 3 years old that time cried out loud..
he wanted the ice cream so bad..
my father would've gave him if he had the money..
but instead..
he shouted n chased away that pak cik 'ais kerim' like this:
"berambus kamu! jgn dtg jual ais kerim kat sini!"
u guys can imagine how hard it is our life back then..
n i can imagine how sedih he is because he can't even gave his lil son an ice cream...
my oldest brother (yeop) had to quit from school because he just cant help seeing my mak n abah working so hard..
at the age of 10 -11..we were trained to sell fish caught by abah, fruits we get from kampung, n my brother even cycled to town during ramadhan to get some 'mercun' n sell them in front of the house.
time raye..abah x pernah beli baju baru..
he would spent all of his money on us..

so raye last year i had my own money...
i buy them new clothes..
it wasn't expensive..
but they wear it on the first day of raya padahal baju yang i give them tu bkn baju melayu n baju kurung...
mak n abah were so happy..
i can see it in their eyes...
when we went to rumah saudara mara,.they will tell them that they were wearing baju yang i belikan..


everytime i think of abah n mak..
i can't help crying..
teringat kesusahan mereka membesarkan kitorg sume...

mak...
abah...
pls..keep holding on...
i want to give u everything that u had sacrifice for us...
i want to sent mak n abah pegi haji..
pls...
wait..
n pls god..dont take them away yet...

~amin~